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Friday, December 14, 2018
It's been a long year. 2018, hasn't been that much kinder. Quite a lot of activity on this blog this year. Lots of changes, including myself. This brief pause made me realize the subtle changes.I have lost focus. I am not loving my girl the right way.
I have not been the same person. The paranoia has consumed me whole. I have been gravely unfair to my girl. :( The paranoia, in which over the years, grew in uncontrollable amounts. Clearly this would take the top spot on my New Years list. This has to stop. I love my girl, regrettably, I have not been taking care of her the way I used to. This pause really got me thinking. Lately I've been, taking things for granted. Spending way too much time and effort with fishes. I'm slowing down on that. Changes has to be made. Our recent arguments were solely due to paranoia. It's creeping in too much. Destroying a relationship which was once oh so perfect and true. I have been in love with her for three years now. I cannot imagine seeing her go. Days like these make my chest feel really heavy.
Future me, I pray to God, very dearly, That we could sort this out. This will be one of the greatest obstacles in your relationship. I really hope we could make it through this.
Please don't drift away too far. Please? :(
[s.e]
Our brains so hate the idea of losing something that's valuable to us that we abandon all rational thought and make some really poor decisions
-Rachel Chu, CRA.
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